Got up early today. It was nice to wake up on a Sat. and not have a headache and try to remember what I did the night before. I think i've been partying a bit too much, but it's been fun anyways.

I was supposed to help my dad winterize the boat so I headed down to Mentor and met up with him and his weight watchers group which was really nice. I love the people he hangs out w/ from there. He seems to have found some really cool friends, which I'm really grateful for. But I know, even with his friends, he seems a bit lonely.

I want so badly for my dad to be happy. I want him to love someone because he is good at caring. He's made such an amazing change as a father from before my mom got sick to know. Before, he wouldn't listen, but now he listens (which is a nice quality in case you guys wanted to know). More guys could use that quality.

It's just I see how upset he gets when he feels lonely and it upsets me. I know he just wants a woman to love and cuddle and dote on.

And then my Aunt Janie made a comment today that for some reason hit me right in the core of my heart. She's lost 135.5 lbs. through weight watchers! Can you believe that! A whole person. And my mom was her best friend. And she says "I just wish I could tell your mom. That would be so cool!" and I almost lost it. I don't know why. I mean I do. Because it makes me realize how much my mom has missed out on. SO MUCH! And I go back to feeling cheated. And then with my dad sad today, it makes me mad for how much he's cheated.

Anyways, If I could have one wish in the world right now it would be for my dad to just be Happy.